Woke up at 8.30am. That’s the medication for sure. Jesus said to go out at 10am and thus we did. We walked together into Alvaston and I bought two vapes from the shop. It was fine. Thank God. Thank God.

Today, let’s see what happens. It’s still young.

13.30 went for a walk to the church. Struggling with my mind. Not insurmountable but it wasn’t easy.

Paranoia and irrational thoughts. It’s 14:50. Fighting delusions.

5pm struggling with delusional thinking and finding hidden meaning. It’s a struggle…fucking hard work.

its 1830. Tired of my mind…I wouldn’t wish this on Hitler… When will it end???